Storms

It was unseasonably warm last night. The air was heavy and the sky dark because the moon and stars couldn’t shine through the thick clouds. The wind was wild and the rain came fast and hard. Then it calmed and the rain drops were big and slow.

The news and sirens told us there were tornado warnings but I could feel it in the air before they told us anything. I wasn’t scared when I went to bed last night but I woke up several times because the thunder was loud and the wind was making the trees hit against the house and the barn was creaking.

The sounds of the storm and the strange low way the thunder rolled reminded me of one night when I was a little girl…maybe ten years old.

I remember Daddy sitting in the doorway on the steps that led to the carport. The screen door was propped open and all the windows were opened too.

Daddy was watching the weather. He said he could feel it in his bones that it would be really bad weather. Probably tornadoes.

He sat there lifting his cigarette to his mouth and taking a deep draw so that the tip of it turned bright orange. The smoke came out of his mouth fast. He rested his hands on his knees then clasped them together while holding the cigarette. He lifted the cigarette to his mouth for another draw. Over and over again until there was no more tobacco to burn. He threw the cigarette down onto the concrete of the carport then stepped on it. Then he bent forward to comfort the dog. Bojo stayed at Dad’s feet even closer when there was a storm.

The rain wasn’t heavy but the big trees all around our house were moving wildly because of the wind. Then the rain and the wind stopped and it was calm. The lightning flickered across the sky and the thunder rumbled deep and long and far off.

But I wasn’t scared.

Daddy was watching the weather.

 

 

Unusual

Scared

God is a safe place to hide, ready to help when we need him.                Psalm 46:1  MSG

“God knows it’s scary to be us.”

I’m like the five-year-old awakened in the night by a flash of lightning and loud boom of thunder, running to her parents’ bedroom to crawl in bed with them. I’m scared.

This is scarier than thunder and lightning. And all I know to do right now is cry out to God.  I’m scared because I don’t know how this is going to turn out. What I thought was……..is not.

One of my favorite authors, Beth Moore, wrote: “God knows it’s scary to be us.”

And He doesn’t take it lightly. He knows our fears and sorrows. God knows the tears that have streamed down our faces and the deep pain that caused them. Not one teardrop is unnoticed. Even the ones we hold in.

You keep track of all my sorrows. You have collected all my tears in your bottle. You have recorded each one in your book.         Psalm 56:8  NLT

I’m scared of what’s to come, the pain of healing, and the unknown. I’m even more scared of going back to the way it was.

So I will seek the Lord. I will run to Him and let Him comfort me. I will look to Him as I go through the struggle, the inconvenience, and the pain. And I will be radiant.

I sought the Lord, and he answered me; he delivered me from all my fears. Those who look to him are radiant; their faces are never covered with shame.          Psalm 34:4-5  NIV

In response to the Daily Post’s Storm.